For years, I have followed a favorite writer and watched her go through some pretty tough days. She was brave to face her truth and not hide. She chose to live by these words: Know the truth. Live the truth. It changes everything.

Today is Day 1 for me of knowing and living my truth. And the truth is, I’ve been in a war most of my life with the enemy of rejection. This enemy absolutely comes to steal, kill, and destroy; and he has certainly worked overtime in my heart. The relationships in my life who were given the task to love me, protect me, and lead me did not — because of their own battles — follow through with this God-given assignment; and I have been left carrying a suitcase of rejection most of my life. It has cost me so much, and it is still costing me today. I have lost friends and close relationships over the weight of this burden I have continued to carry, and I have made poor choices as I struggled with knowing and trying to discover my truth. My precious husband and those closest to me are often left with trying to pick up the pieces of my past and convince me to see myself through their eyes. The Lord has certainly blessed me with this union and relationships that have stayed the course with me. But the truth is, I have struggled with focusing on what I have to be grateful for and, instead, continued to carry this suitcase of rejection and loss.

BUT today…as I am triggered by the ultimate heartbreak and feelings of rejection – again, actions from others that I have no control over – I am going to start my healing journey. I am going to know the truth, live the truth, and trust that it will change everything.

And the truth is I am enough.

I. Am. Enough.

And I don’t have to prove that.

I just am.

And so are you, friend.

Today is Day 1 of my healing journey. I’m not going to hide any longer. I am hurting. I need prayers. But I am enough.

Today, I choose those who choose me. No manipulations. No more proving I am enough. No more proving I am worthy. Today, I am believing that I am enough; and I will survive. I will trust Jesus. I will trust my journey.

Today was Day 1, and I took a 3-mile walk. Pray for me to take another walk tomorrow.

If you can relate to this oh-so-vulnerable post and you could use a friend or a prayer, I’m your girl. Please message me privately, and I will pray for you. Thank you for praying for me. I am eternally grateful.